Had a very slow start to the day, and for the most part did
nothing. Then I had my mom over for supper. My son went out with his mom, so it
was just my mom and I. It was very nice and a great meal - if I do say so
myself... J
My mood has been basically holding, but I did notice a
little 'blip' last night. I just suddenly realized for a very brief moment I
had a suicidal ideation. Like I said it was brief, but just the fact it showed
itself at all was disheartening and an evil reminder that this disease is a permanent
fixture of my life. I kind of had one of those moments today too, but not quite
as severe. I go for another rTMS treatment tomorrow, so hopefully that will
push those little fragments out of my mind...
I think that is it for today. Tomorrow my goal: Make it to
my rTMS appointment... OR perhaps my goal should be to get those damn rTMS
letters out to the government - I am not sure why I keep putting that off,
especially since they are already written. I just want the government to cover
the cost of rTMS, so more people can try it. There are so many people,
including children, teens, and adults that might really benefit from trying
rTMS, but cannot afford to pay that huge fee. I really need to make this
happen...
Talk to y'all tomorrow...
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