Another rTMS treatment successfully received...

I missed celebrating my 200th post two days ago - damn... Happy belated 200th post people!!!

So I think this was my 700th rTMS treatment (not literally), but it feels like I have been getting them all my life. Which is not really a bad thing - it is an excellent treatment with really no side effects. And it's working, this regiment of two one week then one the next week - is working - as mentioned for the longest time now no suicidal thoughts, not one - not even fleeting... I do think if I ever get to see my pdoc again I might ask about anxiety medication, but I am guessing I have tried them all already - so not getting my hopes up...

My back on the other hand - sucks ass... I cannot describe to you the pain I am in. I mentioned my concerns about the facet injection vs. the nerve block to my psychiatrist's partner, who is also a psychiatrist and he figured the facet injection is a bit of a longer term inhibitor than the quick fix of the nerve block. I am hoping he is right, because I didn't get up the nerve to call my family doctor - I am such a wimp. Anyway, back for my second injection tomorrow - yippy... NOT! I will ask them if it is supposed to be this painful. I am not looking forward to the freezing coming out after tomorrow's injection, to have both sides hurting this bad - UGH... And then I have to try and get my son to his drum lessons. J

So here I started my post earlier, but I am sadly in way too much pain to be thoughtful and able to give a hundred percent to working on my life goals. Perhaps I can set tomorrow's goal as, 'writing one scene of my zombie movie.' Seems doable... Let's see if this works people. I also have another movie idea I would like to write a synopsis for, but let's stick to the one simple goal for now...

Talk to y'all tomorrow...