Basically a 'good' day over all, really did nothing but lay
around in pain - took my son to an appointment, and then some Wal-Mart shopping
this evening - should note no line ups, and barely any people = awesome... J
That's it I got nothing else to report... My mood has been
holding well, zippo suicidal ideation, still just the anxiety issues and so
much BACK PAIN... My back, on the side I got the needle, is still even more
painful than before. I tried calling my family doctor but when I called they
were closed for lunch, and then I couldn't get the guts up to do it again. I
just want to check with him that he really thinks I should be getting the facet
injection vs. the nerve block (as mentioned in a previous post). Holy f#$k I am
tired of this pain - I am not sure how I am functioning. Driving in the car is
so painful, I think I am becoming an even more aggressive driver (not sure how
that's possible) but it just hurts so damn much... I am constantly fighting
back tears, and find it harder and harder not to make grunting sounds with
every stabbing pain...
Blah enough about the back - I realize I keep promising
myself to blog about goals, and then I leave my posting so late that I just
want to quickly write something and go to bed. I need to seriously work on my
goals, especially because it feels like summer is just hauling it's ass past
me, and I am doing nothing that I want to, or think I want to do - whatever
that might be, still not sure... ugh Damn I got to figure this shit out...
Talk to y'all tomorrow...
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