Things are for shit - I have not noticed a lift after
yesterday's treatment. I feel like shit. I feel suicidal. I am far from happy.
It has been a long time since I have felt this low. I find it impossible to get
out of bed, and I haven't even had a shower today (yes that is a big deal I am
a fanatic when it comes to daily showering)...
SO WHAT? Who gives a fuck? Me either...
I called and left a message for the therapist again, and
hopefully next Thursday I can meet him, just waiting to hear if he has any
spots open for then. Of course in this mindset therapy will be for shit, I
realize that is a shitty attitude but that has been my experience. I was hoping
the treatment would have things under control, and therapy would be there to
help me to the next level of 'healthy'.
I shan't bore you any further... fuck I hate this!!!!
Talk to y'all tomorrow...
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