Sad not depressed...

Spoke to the surgeon's office today, only to discover that since my MRI didn't show anything "substantial", they have prioritized my appointment for November. When I explained that the pain is excruciating and I can barely walk. I was told, "You can always go into the emergency department, not that I can guarantee they will do anything, but I will let you know if there are any cancellations." Fuc#ing surgeon!!!!! 

So mood was good then dipped pretty low, but really it's still OK - no suicidal stuff... Just feeling down, like I am sure anyone would, thanks to the word from the surgeon. Anyway, spent the day helping my friend find some lost items - so that part of the day was met with success.

I wish I had more to tell you, but alas I do not. Tomorrow I plan on hiding in bed - for many reasons including pain, and being upset about my back. I am hoping I can get my new family doctor to refer me to Caleo Health http://www.caleohealth.ca/. It is a spine clinic here in Calgary that my friend was told about... I have an appointment next week with the family doctor, so first I have to bring him up to speed about what is going on since I haven't seen him since all this started, and then see if he will refer me. I was also thinking of getting my pdoc to write a letter to the surgeon to let him know the back issue is effecting my treatments. The nurse/doctor at my pdoc's office also said she had a friend that is a surgeon, so maybe when she gets back from her trip she can pull some strings.

So really there is some hope, I should really just take a chill pill and calm down... but it just hurts so damn much... Hey who cares remember the fact that you don't have any more suicidal thoughts - celebrate!!!!

Talk to y'all tomorrow...