So I had my rTMS treatment finally after 12 days. My pdoc
and his associate learned a lot at their Harvard course, including a different
protocol. Harvard used a faster pulse rate, with less trains but equals more
pulses. It felt so strange. Generally when I get the treatment my left eyebrow twitches
with each pulse, now with the pulses going so quickly the entire left side of
my face pulled up for the full duration of the train. Like I said it was such a
strange feeling. I haven't noticed any lift to my darkness, but I am extremely
tired. I go back on Thursday, at which time my pdoc said we will see how I made
out from this treatment to determine if he will give me another one on Thursday
or get me to wait until Monday... I vote for treatments on both days, but I
guess I am getting greedy.
My son and I had a wonderful dinner with some very caring
family members this evening. There was great food, great conversation, and some
pint size entertainment. It was so nice to get out of the house, and do
something different. It was also very nice to reconnect with people that I just
haven't connected with for a very long time, and we had them all to ourselves. There
is so much love out there, I really need to work on my ability to embrace it!!!
In answer to Debbie's Comment of yesterday (sorry for the
delay): If only Alberta Health provided coverage for therapy....... or I was
rich, or my one stop clinic was real... I contacted Alberta Mental Health and
was told the same old story - their answer for free or low cost therapy is Calgary
Counseling or the Bipolar Clinic. As you may know Calgary Counseling only
provides student therapists whom of which are temporary, and still 'learning'.
I have tried them, not very impressive and it's downtown. The Bipolar Clinic is
run by an idiot, and I went through their program when it was called the Mood
Clinic. So ya... I know you mentioned the place you went, but I think you said you
need to use their shrink - and for many obvious reasons I am not planning a
shrink change anytime soon... But yes I agree therapy would be a nice and
necessary add-on...
Talk to y'all tomorrow...
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