Unite as one philistines!!!

Mood up - nope mood down... Not the whole day just kind of ok one minute, then a little mopey, sad, and unhappy the next... I understand my financial situation is helping to fuel the depression, so I try and keep that in mind when I start to sink into the black pit of death...

I went to the family doctor today, the one retiring, to get my back checked - basically a waste of time, as we need to wait and see if it clears up on its own. If it's still screwed up in 3 months, then we start the laborious task of getting a specialist interested. Meanwhile, I get to go through the same crap I went through before..... yippy! Perhaps we can leave it long enough that I have to get more surgery, hmmmm.

Wow writer's block - I felt earlier today I had all this 'stuff' I wanted to share about how I was feeling and how strange it was, and now I sit here and I have nothing... I kind of just want to go to bed and forget all the shit that is bringing me down. I feel very lost at times, as i have mentioned before I just seem to be wondering the house aimlessly. I have plenty to do, but cannot concentrate long enough to do any of it. I hope once my pdoc gets back next week and I get another treatment things will brighten, and my concentration will improve.

Good night cruel world...

Hello Cruel World

Eels (band) Lyrics

Hello cruel world so this is you

A broken heart a withered view

I’m looking out to face another day

The angry mob, the happy mass

This birthday cake may be the last

I’m looking out to find another way

Norman rockwell colors fade

All my favorite things have changed

What the hell,

Hello cruel world

I thought I heard an opera star

Who had no home under the stars

She sang and sang and sang the night away

And mother nature changed her name

She doesn’t want to play the game

I don’t believe she’ll ever be the same

So big brother never came

Howdy-doodie gets the blame

But what the hell

Hello cruel world

Fat and beautiful and strange

Monkeys dancing in a cage

But what the hell

Hello cruel world

Venus de milo grew an arm

And old mcdonald bought the farm

Say goodbye

Hello cruel world

Norman rockwell colors fade

All my favorite things have changed

But what the hell, hello cruel world

Fat and beautiful and strange

Monkeys dancing in a cage

But what the hell

Hello cruel world

Say goodbye, hello cruel world

But what the hell

Hello cruel world

Hello hello

Ooooh ooooh

Hello cruel world

Talk to y'all tomorrow...